On October 25, 2014, I lost my auntie Crystal and experienced loss like I never had before. I felt the lowest I’ve ever felt, and I cried the hardest I’ve ever cried. This was after weeks of praying the most I’ve ever prayed and believing more than I’ve ever believed for a miracle. When that didn’t happen, I found myself asking God, “Why?”
Today, I’ve turned that weakness into strength. After many sleepless nights and what seemed like a never ending heartbreak, I realized that she’s in the safest place she could ever be. That helped me shift my thoughts to why she lived instead of focusing on why she died. My auntie was a true angel on earth. Her life was one that had a lasting, personal impact on everyone she touched. She did all she could to help any and everyone around her who was in need, even perfect strangers. She walked in her purpose and lived a life that was intentional. She was never afraid to try something new or go after what God put on her heart to do. Most of all, she loved her family and treated her friends as though their blood ran through her veins.
So, as I begin this journey of truly pursuing my purpose, it’s important to note that she is the reason I am pushing past my fears to walk in the fullness of my future. She taught me that we can’t take anything or anyone for granted. I love harder, work harder and live fuller because of her. She’s my heroine. She’s my angel. And she will forever and always be my reason.
Rest in paradise, auntie.